Something about Me, Something about Gay and Something about Love

Contemplating on my past gay experiences and relationships, I decide to bring up the courage and pen it down. And I know it's not going to be easy, but I'm sure documenting it down is the best way to be previewed by people who cares to know (whether out of concern or paparazzi-ing is not my concern). The reason why I'm doing this is to unfold what usually ain't, and for a greater purpose, I just hope people won't make the same mistakes that I had. Before I start, Disclaimer: All Rights Reserved, avoid further reading if HOMOPHOBIC. Emphasis that there might have contents not suited for the eyes of 21 and below. The events depicted in this blog entry is fictitious. Any similarity to any person living or dead is merely coincidental.

Brief Introduction: Stepping into this (Gay) circle, I was almost finishing my Secondary School education somewhere after my first GCE 'O' Levels and my second attempt. My first exposure was during 2003 Christmas celebration with Timothy korkor and his boyfriend, it was a club. I wasn't really into clubbing directly after that, don't even know what's the purpose of clubbing or why are those clubbers so enjoying in club. Subsequently, SG Boy came into the picture and getting to know more friends.. and Gary introduced me clubbing-can-be-fun. 2003 near end-of-year enlisted and 2004 started regular clubbing. And the story starts,

I got to know of this very unique looking guy taking picture of one of the regular nights 'Drag Show' during one of my usual nights at Why Not bar and club. Apparently, popular, yet didn't seen him around before. Not popular in the sense people is all over him, but popular in the sense that he tends to have always have someone to talk to from corners of the club. Nice height, long neat hair, average built, and usually a very stunning smile (to me). Seemingly very sociable and what captures my eyes are how serious he was when he was taking those pictures.

Nothing done, but just stealing glances (not drooling, oging nor whispering to friends about him). Feeling wasn't affected at all, don't even know what should I feel about such scenerio. How should gay even feel about one another?! I don't know.. Finished clubbing usually around 4am and a routine to sit down at Maxwell Market, drinking Iced Milk Tea or Pokka Green Tea and ordering Mini Wok Noodles. Chit chat, talked and goosips.. That seems to be pretty familiar with any one of you out there. I was one of the kind that bitches whenever someone talk to me about silly stuffs.

And goosh, here the guy that catches my attention appeared. Walking in Maxwell Market like grocery shopping in NTUC or park strolling.. from tables to tables he visited and a usual greetings around was a hug and peck on the cheeks. In the late 5am hour, we usually would make our way to somewhere to sit down and wait for the first train's timing before hitting the train go home and rest. He camed. 'Hi, I'm Victor..' and me, with a slight smile, 'I'm James'. And we just hang around with the other guys there, and me, silenced seated down and he talking with someone he just got to knew, Joash and Sabrina.

Eventually, we all boarded the trains, all heading East, North and North-East boarded the East-bound train and heading West, North-West, boarded the West-bound train. After Jurong East, the only people left is I and Victor. As we didn't spoke much earlier, he start hitting conversation with me. Arriving at the last station, I sent him to the bus interchange and we carry on chatted, even until he reached the bus boarding berth.. And he missed 4-5 buses just as we chatted standing there.. exchanged numbers.. and soon, he decided we should chat other day and he boarded the next one, afterwhich I make my way home and knock out on bed.

The next thing that happened to my life was my 19th Birthday. Celebrated with Timothy korkor (same day birthday) at East Coast Park doing Barbecue for it. Meanwhile, I and Irvine are seeing each other (Irvine was interested in me for about few months before this). As my friends last minute can't turn out for the thing, I thought of Victor (wasn't invited at first due to last minute), texted him if he is interested to turn up for my birthday celebration.. without hesitation he said yes, even when he got to make his way to Tantric bar later in the night. I was pretty happy that he's coming. Came the evening draws closer by minutes as I helped out with the stuffs, after Victor arrives, he seems to help me out pretty well and all agreed that I should take care of the attendance and less of the barbecue stuffs. So, I took it.

I was observing the situation and he seems to click very easily with crowds he hardly know. Soon gather.. soon cut the cake.. soon Victor gotta leave and I walked him to the taxi. An unforgettable night it was. Jia Jun was drunk, Muk was with YX, Jerald, Nelson and Kent was busy chatting around, and Irvine starts introducing me several way to drink liquor, eg. Screwdriver. And hit the club in the later night.. Nice planning right? Night went smoothly, and enjoyed it so much. TBC (To Be Continued)...