Dragon Boat & Volunteering: Planning Phase

Well, remember that I mentioned that I planned to join Dragon Boat right? Hmm.. I did took an initiative to look up on Dragon Boat and stuffs and I came across this interesting team that happens to be an active volunteer group as well. The group I am talking about is CCWA (Caregiver Counseling Welfare Association) Dragon Boat Team. So, there's two items here, one is the Organization, and the other is the Team.

So the Organization is this CCWA as mentioned earlier which provides assistance and aids to people with disability, mental illness, life threatening diseases, and lonely elders too. A very wide range of recipients so to say. And as for the Dragon Boat Team under this well, is kind of unknown right now. Hmm.. And of course, from all first impression is that Dragon boat is so hard so hard, this and that. Well, I don't give in to things that I never tried, and so, yeah, I guess I will plan my way out probably after my Exams in February.

Hmm.. As for volunteering, that reminds me that Shahul korkor is doing some mentoring and stuffs as a volunteer for a long while now. Probably I will consult him on where did he do his flexible and fun volunteering.. But just as I was doing my personal research on the net, I think I did found something which quite suit my liking, volunteering at Students Care Service. Like what the name of the volunteer Organization says, it's main beneficiaries are towards mainly children and youths. But at the same time, involves family members, youth offenders, and schools too!

Wow, and I always thought of giving tries as consultants or counselor and facilitator.. Now is my time to put on such tries through volunteering. It has three centers: Clementi, Hougang and Yishun. That's one of the reason as well, at least it is along a convienent line of way, and that's Clementi. LOL.. Volunteering until like that, so fussy right? Anyway, one of my reason of volunteering is that I want to tune to understand different people from different crosses of life.

Probably it would do me great deal of tuning for personal good as well as a form of observation of human behaviour which I would deem as a form of Psychological understanding bah. I did of course, thought before of going into the field of study in Psychology. But definitely not going to me by first field nor main field of works.. not unless I have a Master or PhD on it and a international license to practise and research.

Anyway, that's about it... Hopefully, this entry will lead you to feel good about knowing someone who am going to do good to the society, or motivates you to join me in the route of contributing to the needies. I on the other hand, do really got to put my work and studies before all though, wish me good luck bah!

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

The movie is inspired by a short story named 'The Curious Case of Benjamin Button' in 1921 which is written by an author named F. Scott Fitzgerald. It's a pity I missed the movie in the cinema when I had the chance to catch it and I didn't. Starring Brad Pitt, Cate Blanchett, Taraji P. Henson, Julia Ormond, Tilda Swinton. The movie is out in 2008 and directed by David Fincher.

The scene seems to be in 1918 November 11, in the celebration of World War 1, about a phenomina of a birth of a baby that looks like and behave like an old man. And with such special case, after the giving birth, the mother died. The father then choose to abandon the poor baby to a nursing home. A couple in the nursing home saw this little life and took the baby in. Queenie (acted by Taraji P. Henson) was unable to give birth and have baby, and so decided to take the baby as her's and gave her a name, called Benjamin.

This baby's physiq grew younger, unlike every other people. What a powerful storyline right? Going against that of nature. Anyway, this Benjamin grows from old to young. And the life experience of Benjamin is so different.

Hmm.. Think about this. People longed not to age, eager to look young, just years and years of age pile up on one another each year after each other years. But to be in Benjamin Button's shoe is such that is like a true gift from God to behave like this as a form of nature. But, is that really what is called for. I present to you: The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (thanks to Youku.com).

Blog and Bloggers...

As day pasts, day approaches, I discover two things: 1, I have been blogging for quite a while now. With my first blog post dated 28 August 2008, and now is already 2009 January! And I have blogged about so many things within just a mere few months past. But then again, this makes me worry as well.. How long more will JamesW850i last? With the fast paced lifestyle and the busy schedule now and future.. It's high maintainence lo.

And the 2, I discovered that friends started to leave blog and stopped blogging altogether. Hmm.. Nothing new, but just that, since the day blog has been introduced to be one of those things that you can do and enjoy with internet, people learned the good things about writing down things and occurrences day by day. Like in the past, back in Secondary School, teachers would encourage the students to write journals, and diaries too.

Blogs would be the electronic and made-easy accessible form of journals and diaries I should say, and it's both good. And I have found myself fond of writing about things all around me, caught my attention, and interests me or puzzles me, or anything.. All these while has been quite fun and intriguing for me, and hopefully it does too for blog readers like you. Nowadays, I have been finding new sources and materials and ideas and fun things to blog, and outreach to everyone.

Be sure to keep followup with my updates on blogs and every other posts. Hmm.. It may not be blogged every other day, and probably not consistently maintained and untidy and simple and bored outlook of the blog, well, at least I am here to say, I have not given up on my blog! =D But strange things do happen, that there seems to have a lot of people visiting my blogs everyday and yet only some few of the people comments and leave behind tracks and links and stuffs.

Do feel free to comment you know.. I'll be happy to read here ;-)

'Close to You' by Shanice

Close to You
(they long to be)

Why do birds
Suddenly appear?
Everytime you are near
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

Why do stars
Fall down from the sky?
Everytime you walk by
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

(*) on the day that you were born
The angels got together and decided
To create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moondust in your hair
Of gold and starlight in your eyes of blue

(**) that is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

Repeat (*)
Repeat (**)

Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

Woo... close to you...
(PoemHunter.com, 25 January 2009)

A song originates from Carpenters, and this version is from Shanice. And seems like is being used on Meteor Garden 2 the Taiwan serial. Hmm.. A song to enjoy. This is one of the Carpenters' that I enjoyed exceptionally lot. Did you like it?

What's on your mind?

Personality Test Result:

Here is the analysis: Your job is the most important thing in your life, and although you do seek love, you worry that your loved one would distract you from your work. You also worry that he or she might be after your money rather than your hear.
Source: Quiz Box

Hmm.. Intriguing. The test has spoken.. Maybe someone can try it and comment on how true it is over at your side. I would say mine is over 70% true :-)

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Something about Me, Something about Gay and Something about Love VIII

Disclaimer: All Rights Reserved, avoid further reading if HOMOPHOBIC. Emphasis that there might have contents not suited for the eyes of 21 and below. The events depicted in this blog entry is fictitious. Any similarity to any person living or dead is merely coincidental.

As previously, we stopped at

Well, wasn't of anything like what you may thought of. Benji back then was as sticky and mushy little prick. I wasn't very into him back then, and neither was I with Benji already and well, thought of making moves on me, for instances, trying to lean towards me claiming that he is tired. Back then, I still believe in the word 'behave' very strictly. Especially with someone I just got to know for less then 24hours. Definitely it is a very big no-no to hanky panky in someone else's car of such depth.

But there onwards, a new form of friendship took place. It started off with me and Elvis to have lots of long talks and conversation through phone calls and MSN. Talking about nothing very specific, but everything under the sun. A way to get to know about one another better and usually like always, talking about the believe of love. Then again, one very specific phone call, we talked about Benji and I. We talked about the kind of stage Benji and I was at and what can be done, etc.

And out of nowhere, Elvis suggested that I should keep putting him on 'hold'. And well, telling Elvis that I have given Benji a period of one month before I decides to tell if Benji and I to be together or not. The part of one month is to have a longer period to look into things and people at their most true form. Something which I have come to realized from the period of my first love breakup until now. Is that, the most important thing in a person is his ultimate true self. How is that to be proven, almost unable, but you know that it is just you.

A little sharing of the 'ultimate true self' believe. Is this, you are who you are which you built on every since you are born with. You dun need people to teach you how to be you, but you just know. What the school teaches and parents teaching just builds on the true self as well. For example, if the true self have a great deal of patient, then you will never be tired of waiting. But if you don't have that in your true self, but just believing that you have, one fine day, your patience can easily run out of it and start to blame on whichever that makes you impatient. True self like this is something that usually never changes.

Anyway, back to the one month I spoke of earlier. Well, I wasn't very convinced by Elvis' suggestions though, but thought it is just as a form of joke to make Benji sounds silly and me sounds pranky. And one day, we thought of going to Sentosa for a walk, in the evening time with his car. And I was borned, and didn't visit Sentosa for a long long time, that I agreed to go as well. The weather was really very nice and windy. And we talked about a lot of things, a bit of NS, a bit of life and everything.

Never one moment was I bored or nothing to talk about. And back then, Sentosa was so beautiful without construction barriers and huge cranes and sanded roads. Just some quiet stretch of bridge connecting main island to Sentosa and looking at both sides are empty walk ways for pedestrians and sea. Tilting the heads up, you can see the cable cars and the clear dark sky with no visible stars, but lamp posts lighting the way of drivers.

And that would be the very first time I step foot onto the Sentosa at Tanjung beach. We walked side by side, looking down at where our feet lands and listening to the waves washing up the shore. The beach was empty! Quiet fills the gap of the waves and wind fills the gap of still air. The sand was a mix of moistened and coarse sand and soft and white sand and pieces of wood shacks everywhere big and small. And walking from one end of Tanjung beach to the other seems so leisure and free.

Elvis took the lead just as we walked and walked right to the most inner of Tanjung beach, and there was where you can see an end with bushes and big boulders stacked up to form the coast. And we went beyond the bushes, walking on shrubs and dirt paths. Don't think dirty now! We were at the very very end of the Tanjung beach.. and we seat down. The place was extremely calm and cool, with wind blows time to time and we talk as we look outwards into the sea.

I can remember very clearly, somehow, somewhat.. Elvis brought up a topic on his past relationship. Very sentimentally, things just started to pour out. He didn't in fact have a chance to really experience a real relationship. His dating life, people that claims like him, people that he did liked for, his life full of hopes and changes and dreams. So many many ambitions, I could almost feel that he was almost all drained just by thinking over all these one by one. The very position that we seated, I remember, was filled with stars and almost close to zero cargo ships.

Time passes us by so fast and we decided to head back to the car and go out for supper at Geylang. Seriosuly speaking, my very first time as well.. XD We went and had chinese dim sum, very yummy, and warming as well. And that all concludes for the first ever time we go out experience. It was all so sweet fonding memories.. After that supper, he drove me back and got back home, and back to his life where he least like to be. TBC (To Be Continued)...

Despair..??

You never know when the next person is going to go against the norm, is another like-minded, but actions other-wise person. In Singapore, Motivational quotes are something that has been newly around for maybe 5 years time.. And it is something that is being easily accessed almost everywhere you go to, examples, hospital, offices, and even NPC (Neighborhood Police Centers) sometimes.

How to spot one? Very easy.. Usually it is a black or white lamented piece of thing, with a very big picture and below it a line or two motivational quotes extracted somewhere. The picture can be as common as a scenery, or as abstract as just a drawings maybe. But today, I am going to tell you I am not going to motivate you. Not even a bit.. =) In fact, I am going to do the opposite, and that's demotivate you.. to the point of Despair! Muahahaha...

I am here to share this website with you: Despair, Inc. It is some creations of probably several smart alec to think about such non-conformist service to "balance things up" a little. What I am saying here is, to give you a new perspective to thinking. Just to share some interesting demotivation:

It says 'CONSULTING - If You're Not a Part of the Solution, There's Good Money to be Made in Prolonging the Problem.'

LMAO.. Anyway, that's not all, it's almost as good as motivations. And you may not believe, but this is what the Founder and COO says 'we believe motivational products create unrealistic expectations, raising hopes only to dash them. That's why we created our soul-crushingly depressing Demotivators® designs, so you can skip the delusions that motivational products induce and head straight for the disappointments that follow!' (K.L.Kersten, Ph.D., 13 Mar 2009)

I find a lot of many other demotivators kind of funny and some really very sarcastic, so much so that I enjoyed laughing at them uncontrollably. Not the best kind of joke available, but definitely one of those new ones. Tell me which is your favorite one.. I sure am curious =P

South Park: 1213 Elementary School Musical

The whole little changes started when Butters mentioned 'High School Musical 3' to Stan, Kyle, Kenny and Cartman. And apparently, they didn't know and wouldn't care about it. Learning what was cool, they choose to be non-conformist and not let High School Musical and it's dances change them. Even though that they see that the whole school has totally been so into it! Funny funny.. And you know parts and parts of the movie right? They just started dancing out of nowhere! XD

Back to the episode, it was said to be 'THE most popular thing in our age group'.. And a third grader called Bridon Gueermo can into the picture of every student's topic. And every girls are just so into this junior guy, and that includes Stan's girlfriend, Wendy. Oh no, what will Stan do? How will Stan feel? Stan's position is shakened!

Stan and gang felt maybe they should watch High School Musical one day and then discover how disliking it is. With all the dancing and stuffs, they just don't wish to be involved in 'it'. And Stan, Kyle and Kenny decides to pledge that they are not going to become this, High School Musical fad. But then again, Stan knows that Wendy is becoming closer with Bridon over musical roles that they share. =D Poor Stan.

But even though Bridon the third grader is in such a famous and welcoming role, he have his own problems. One, he doesn't like musical and dances, and two, he is living with family violences and a dictative dad that wants Bridon to be just like him, into musical and dances. Oh no.. crash of conflicts! What Bridon really like is to play basketball, which his dad would say that it is a sissy sport, blar blar blar.

So what would happen to Stan and his gang in the battle of popularity in the school? What about Bridon and his family as well as his like for basketball? Oh, and not to forget about Wendy.. Watch it to see it with your own eyes, this episode is one of my favourites: 1213 Elementary School Musical. Watch it now!

Getting Busy.. Busy.. Busier.. Busiest

Busy, is the one word and only word I can use to describe the feeling. You know all the posts that came late, the MIA (Missing In Action) act and the unheard unseen unspoken presence.. Well, yes, is all the contribution to and from this: Cause I am BUSY!

One sole contribution to busy is none other than my School. Dang! I never did expected that is what do they means by Trimester 3 is shorter.. You know, for what I used to have in my mind is 'oh, 1 year there's 12 months.. therefore, per Trimester should be roughly 4 months period..'. Unfortunately, for the Christ sake, after I experienced it, and I got to tell you, Trimester 3 is indeed shorter. Oh, and more screwed up as well, after all, Christmas is in Trimester 3 so is lots of breaks and stuffs for the Australians..

Well, it's as well, my first attempt to cope with four modules in a Trimester. Very bad move, but then, I suppose I am going to do it again in 2009 Trimester 3. Hmm.. Anyway, like I said, I chosen four modules that Trimester. It's in a way fortunate as they are pretty foundational modules that starts with 'Principles of...', 'Fundamentals of...', etc. And one of which is Business Law, a pre-requisite of Corporation Law.

Hmm.. the Lecturer is this middle-aged Lawyer and my classes are generally scheduled on Saturdays. Yup, it is indeed something to be damned over. Studying Law modules on a peaceful and completely-harmless weekend. If considering my sleeping habits, you can truly say that my Saturday will be left with eight hours before Sunday arrives. Well, that's how it is. The Business Law class is somewhat only consist of less than 10 students such as myself and the number randomly adds or minus depending on moods and liking.

What do you expect for a dry subject such as Business Law? Anyway, it is one of those modules that exam paper requires 3 hours (common) and yet there don't seem to have enough time to do the paper (uncommon). Oh, and the best part, it is the few modules that allows the students to bring books and notes in, yup, it's an open book sort. Oh, on top of that, even something so part-time such as work, brings about my busy-ness.. Sighz!

Some work that I am only required to work for ten working days (in a month) and yet, filled up my time slots pretty much from time to time. When time permits, I would be out with friends and be doing revision.. Oh, and after a round of evaluating, you guess what, the whole short Trimester took me about 3 months time, and got me like on/off six assignments and three online tests which consists of two online tests being divided into ten different tests which at the end of all will be compiled together to get a total for the online tests.

And one new experiences of another module which I obviously have overlooked a lot and it is Management. The reason for my under-estimation of it is due to the fact that there's no classes scheduled for part-time students like me who usually if there's classes be held in the evening of weekdays, or in the afternoon of a weekend. So, there's more reason for me to read on my own the materials and making sense out of the power point slides, online reading articles, notes and study guides, and voice recordings.

Oh well, wish me good luck.. Examinations in February man!

'4 In The Morning' by Gwen Stefani

Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
i'm lying here in the dark
watching you sleep, it hurts a lot

And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
and nothing less,cuz you know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the mornin and the tears are pouring
And I want make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come we do it right

All I wanted was to know i'm safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down

It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more

And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
and nothing less,cuz you know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the mornin and the tears are pouring
And I want make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come we do it right

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love for me
We can’t escape the love
Give me everything that you have

And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
and nothing less,cuz you know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the mornin and the tears are pouring
And I want make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come we do it right
(Sing365.com, 13 Jan 2009)

Just some songs I enjoy listening every now and then. It brings me a sense of belonging some part in me, and a sense of familiarity. Enjoy..

Are you still thinking about your ex?

Personality Test Result:

Here is the analysis: You have managed to sweep away any feelings you have left for your ex. You are fully recovered and you don't dwell in anguish over the memories of your times together. You are completely and happily in love with your current boyfriend/girlfriend. Although you may occasionally mention the name of past boyfriends/girlfriend, it will simply be because it relates to what you are talking about. The present moment is what you are interested in.
Source: Quiz Box

I have tried it, have you? This is a yes/no question, and that is a fair test from someone, I wonder how true is that.. Try it and comment what you got!

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Something about Me, Something about Gay and Something about Love VII

Disclaimer: All Rights Reserved, avoid further reading if HOMOPHOBIC. Emphasis that there might have contents not suited for the eyes of 21 and below. The events depicted in this blog entry is fictitious. Any similarity to any person living or dead is merely coincidental.

Back in 'Something about Me, Something about Gay and Something about Love IV', I forgot what was the exact scene and atmosphere it was. I forgot how my first relationship ended, but now I do. My memory came back to me and freshened up the feelings. Victor grew tired. You see, there seems to have a very big loop about a lot of information back then.

So, I shall explain a bit. Victor spends a lot of his time with pubs and clubs and friends be it weekdays or weekends. To be back then, it wasn't at all a problem, or rather, I wouldn't feel that there is a problem. But you see, gays can behave very different to different situations. For example, sometimes in a relationship, the partner seeks your attention when you are together, while other times, the partner doesn't so seek your attention.

In my case, Victor doesn't so seek my attention, even with me. Some what or another, maybe, he do seek a lot of others, friends as well as non-friends' attention. Which in a way, ended up as wind to the wave in the sea, and clouds to the rain in the sky. Rumors. Probably, a naive and straightforward person like me back then would have done as what would deem right, to ask and clarify.

Once, twice, clarifications done one after another. And just over clarifications, patience wore thinner than thin. Thinking that only his patience is the one that matters, he decided that it's time he put an end to it. He finally said it, 'I am tired', which eventually ended the relationship, as my previous posts, over SMSes. Well, I wasn't sad, more like upset then. I didn't mind a lot of things about him, for example, he got a girlfriend when we were together. And he worked as a waiter in Tantric which usually get the better of him.

Hmm.. Ah, now the picture looks so much more completed, probably covered 90% of everything. And you would ask where does the 10% goes to? Well, you see, it was not just over clarifications that do the job. Victor was beginning to show unfaithfulness and tainted symptoms the clarifications last made before he called it an end. An event that probably I could still remember as a form of "memory".

Victor was actually drunk one very night. After years of undrunkable drinking, getting drunk was still made happened. Maybe yes, maybe no, but what I was told was what he himself claimed to be yes. And thereafter, he was brought to someone else home and slept the night. Well, I personally wouldn't believe that nothing happen. Eventhough Victor claimed nothing. The truth is that the guy who brought him home and a common friend between I and Victor was present.

So, well, the truth is, confession is better than not and probably things can be cleared up and decide where do we head after that. But, well, probably Victor didn't thought of this as possible. Or probably choosing to lie would reserve some good impression in him and can at least still be friend after a breakup. The rest of the loop that I skipped are on purpose of not to fill it up, example, the showdown and confrontation of me and the common friend.

On the contrary, I suppose I owe everyone thing but just thanks, as the past would make my present happen no matter it be good or bad. So, how about we carry on from the previous that we left off?

Elvis understand that since Benji doesn't really stands firmly more than just being my boyfriend, he stands more chance. Utilising the most contemporary tactic, peer pressure, he planned his way to achievement. Outings are never just about me if you have guessed, its usually about us and this us is referring to my Family. Segregation of Family from me and him appears more obvious then ever, in every step to make him feeling uneasy and weird, unwelcome and not related. I felt it back then, and I can still remember the kind of staggering awkwardness, it is too much that I can't choose to ignore. But then again, that is altogether another story to be told.

Maybe I should paint a better picture of Elvis right from the start. Elvis, the only child brought up in an averagely-well to do family. Very hospitality trained and is definitely presentable in every aspect as a friend and in his field. He is the same age as me, in the same month as well, and in fact we are just days apart. Leo. Tall. Fair (as in not tanned). Slightly averagely-big size, neither can that be considered built nor muscled, neither chunky.

He drives a family car which was owned by his dad and behaves as what an average joe would behave, something like me. He serves his National Service as a Military Police Officer, just as I served mine as a Police Officer back then. How did we know each other is sort of fate and luck, a mix of both I think. Elvis saw me clubbing one fine night in Why Not without knowing who I was. And the day after, he sort of found my SGBoy (now called Trevvy) profile and privately messaged me.

Something like this, 'I saw you yesterday in Why Not, care to be friend?' or similar. And I finds no excuses not to know another friend, well, for the sake of friend only. So, I intiated saying the next time we meet up to go club together. And we did. Not every eventful, but definitely nice to remember. And after clubbing, if I wasn't wrong, around the time 3am, we decided to leave the club together and he decided to give me a lift. And we did.. with Benji's prescence already. The lift was an aweful 30-40 mins of silence..

Well, wasn't of anything like what you may thought of. Benji back then was as sticky and mushy little prick. I wasn't very into him back then, and neither was I with Benji already and well, thought of making moves on me, for instances, trying to lean towards me claiming that he is tired. Back then, I still believe in the word 'behave' very strictly. Especially with someone I just got to know for less then 24hours. Definitely it is a very big no-no to hanky panky in someone else's car of such depth. TBC (To Be Continued)...

Have a break.. from Love

This is something that probably told but not blogged about. But anyway, I thought probably, I should as well blog about it and refer to it as the thoughts of my mind whenever I have doubts. You see, I have made a very big decision sometime in 2009 which is going to affect me in the short run. And this decision don't seem to be very welcomed nor responded well when I begin to speak of it back then. It's as a matter of fact, something which I presume noone would have supported this decision anyway, after all we are living in a very 'now' century.

You see, back in 2008, I had this idea. This idea of thriving successes in career and academically, which ultimately, the offspring will be financial stability and intellectual-level benchmarking. And I had planned everything all out nicely and beautifully over the next five years. All about indulging in work and night-classes, befriending more books and texts on top of my social life and personal time. Living a life beyond what Singapore life already gotten me, beyond the 9-to-6 life.

And where do the energy and time come from? It comes from the single and available me. It comes from the already starting to learn to used to the tensed life of evening classes and working out my budgets with the pay from my salary no doubt they are peanuts. And finally the plan has gotten a head start soon after sometime in September (2008).

But here comes a few catches, one of those obvious turn out to be I don't wish to be involved in any relationship, love, dating, or even seeing someone. Something which I suppose was strongly criticized on, and disagreed to by many people that come across such "conditions". Who is to blame? No one! But anyway, shaken it maybe but I still feel it's there for some good personal reasons.

1. The one of those reasons which I think vaild: I wouldn't have time nor energy to initiate, conduct and maintain any of such acts (relationship, love, dating, seeing someone). And if I don't put in these required effort, I don't see a point in being in it. Similarly, why do you go into war zone knowing that you don't have enough resources?
2. Linking to another of my personal choice of getting serious for three relationships, I don't need to rush into my third one anyway. Well, after all I had two relationships count till now.
3. In the age of 20-30, probably, it wasn't the ideal age to get into settlement in Singapore (in gay context) I thought. See, in such critical age, in such competitive country, in such environment, people should be taking responsibilities more in getting career built-up, earning substantial income and making paths for the future. It wasn't easy for some parents to raise some kids up and supporting them financially for 20<>

Hmm.. Don't feel like going on elaborating about it further.. =X But then, after the 5 years, I do wish to at least have achieved a Masters in Accountancy and Certified Public Accountant certifications with roughly 3 years of Audit working experience. Hmm.. Plans mah, made to be achieved. Wish me good luck.

The Tale of Despereaux

I didn't have a chance to catch this in the theater back then when it was available. And it was only available for a relatively short period of time in the cinema before it was taken off. An animated film with a main character being called 'Despereaux'.. Weird name, hard to pronounce and hard to remember, and most of all, doesn't tell anything about the main character. Oh, but that isn't the main thing I want to say.

I wanted to say I liked this movie and you should give it a try as well. Hmm.. where should I start. How about if I start by telling about how the film characterized this little mouse 'Despereaux'. Ok, in the movie, it have characterized three things: one, the rat culture; second, the mouse culture; and third, the importance of soup culture. Very interesting that the productions are merely a short ninty minutes to draw these pictures out nicely.

For example, mouse culture is being pictured to have to recognise what to like and what to fear. Like slices of cheese and more greedy on bigger portions of cheese, but when spotted knives, mouse traps, or men, they were taught to fear. But this very mouse, turns out to be very different from the others. Despereaux doesn't fear or scared of mouse traps, knives, or man. And even in the inside, he believes that he is a gentlemen and doesn't likes to eat books, but instead, read them. Interesting?

These people, what about them and soup culture? They are so much fun! Well, I love soups, all kinds of them.. And for their little town, they even have soup day I think. Townsmen dressed in mushroom hats and onions and more.. But one thing ironically placed, mouse speaking codes of gentlemen and honour. What about that you may think? If you want to know the answer, try watching it. Just click the below link:

The Tale of Despereaux by zSHARE

Enjoy :-)

2009, the Year of Change

2009 is being labeled as the 'Year of Change' by us, as in me and my Family. Hmm, but then, what actually is this 'Year of Change' all about? You see, this year, we are expecting lots of changes to be made, to our lives, to our plans, to our interests, to almost anything under the Sun. Well, to certain perspectives, too many things have been left too peaceful and quiet along the years and years. Probably, it is finally a year where we thought about it, and make some changes to the way things have been around.

I suppose with all observation, the first biggest change that's happening is none other than Economic. To all available signs and symptoms showing Economic downturn and Financial Crisis affecting not only the US and Singapore, but World Widely. Terrors struck deep into people's mind, and Companies started to get more uptight with their spending. Recession is usually anything but unavoidable.

And little changes here, little changes there, and I discover that, changes are usually for the better. Although there are changes that are for the worse, but commonly, people would avoid changes.. in a whole. And slowly, I pondered left and right, what kind of changes should I avoid? What kind of changes should I be weary? And what kind of changes do I welcome with an open arm?.. Well, after all, it's a 'Year of Change' right?

Hmm.. and changes approach without giving a fore-warning. It seems to have caused quite a drastic result even though it's not long after 2008 parted us. Oh, yes, I do missed 2008 for the good times, events, songs, people, etc etc. And looking at where I am at now, I suppose I can't really take absolute control over changes, so I'm afraid be the changes good or bad, if it were to happen to me, it'll eventually do so.

Oh, but you know what? Out of all the changes, some, are of course, under control and requires action to be taken by choice, not chance. And some of those are, I have decided to take up a sport: Dragon boat. Not anytime soon though, but it's sure going to happen, just a matter of time. And a second change is that, I have decided to take up volunteer work. Hmm.. And with these two chances at sight, I am sure 2009 won't be that dry and bad after all! Cheers~

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!!