Special* : Woah! Heart broken...

As a person, I understand how easy it is to perceive and presume. Out of human nature, both laziness and convenience, people usually take the easy way out in judging person. After all, how understanding can a person really gets.. and not to forget, it takes constant effort and time to really understand someone, or even an event (or situation) carefully to past judgment onto it. Out of circumstances, people's mind are required to think faster than the mouth, and in any usual 'picture', mouth acts after than brain could.. And this explains for the saying, 'talking is cheap'.

As the brief introduction I wrote on top summaries a bit about the heart broken part.. And how did all the things happen, why not let me put it in a story-telling form and you'll understand why:

Out of one sunny and fair weather, I was in a pretty good mood. With clear-mind and high spirit, I and Darius planned to spend time together, just the two of us. The kind of situation seems pretty weird between I and Darius is a very long past event. And from the emphasis of the 'just the two of us', it is reasonable to assume that we kind of wanted to be left alone.. and yes, we are Friends (Friends with a big 'F', there's great emphasis on the caps 'F' and 'f', so mind this). I planned to meet him right after I finish getting my dental appointment, I'm suppose to go there and get my surgical portion checked for infection and a bit of washing and am ready to go.

We walked practically the whole of Singapore central area, including Orchard area, City Hall area and Bugis. From Tanglin Mall area, we figured our way walking to Bugis to get some errand done, collect Wireless and adapter thing. And then, we proceed to Bugis Junction TCC sit down and chat over coffee. I just love the feeling of tai tai (in Chinese. English it means women living on high society's life).. the feeling of no worries and chilling out, putting aside all stress and burden of the mind. And sometimes, can be pretty inspiring and brings out topics and conversations.

Something about this Darius guy.. A pretty rare species of Capricorn whether when it comes to speaking, thinking or acting. Can easily create confusion and likes to speak halfway and stop. It's very hard to get things done on his side, and usually knowing people is easy for him, but to come across really sincere people is very scarce. Can be pretty much of a weakest link somewhere.. I guess he doesn't really put his heart to the things he does. Motivation level in life: three out of ten stars.

Okay, back to the story. So after the enjoyable time we had at Bugis TCC, we got back on our foot and start walking to Shaw House and then to Suntec City. Why to Shaw House, is because I made a mistake in telling him there's two building: one is called Shaw Tower in Bugis area and the other Shaw House which some called it Liat Tower aka Isetan. Big mistake, didn't have enough sleep.. so to Shaw House we went. After that, to Suntec City, then the critical part came...

We spoke about something maybe we shouldn't have. Darius was telling me how his group of friends thought of me. Well, a bit info about this group of friends. Darius closest group of friends are a group of people that usually do club (just like I do). And Darius did showed me those important figures that is more closer and more dearer to him. And next he said something like his group of friends was commenting why was he still so keen in me when I behaves pretty loose in club.. in the way of when Darius is around can still go dance with people, etc.

It caught my attention, 'I'm listening...' and Darius continued.. His friends thinks that I don't really deserve such a nice guy, Darius, and something like can just dump me and move on looking for other guys lah. Thinking back, Darius did mentioned a few instances which seems to be mattered by him and not me saying I dances with people I don't know (don't remember that). It didn't hit me that hard then.. I was thinking, 'Darius know me long enough to know what I do and what I don't. Misunderstanding perhaps...'

But I don't know why, what was being said seems to stay in my mind longer than usual. I usually don't care about how insignificant people comments in my life, because the core value 'I live my life, not them'. But comments coming out from some of this friends seems pretty bothering at times, as if I really care about how they think. Daniel, Joel and several others perhaps... Well, I really shouldn't as they don't know me well, assumptions usually ain't the true-est when come out this way. What's happening to me lah...

Formula 17

YAY!!! Finally watch this long wanted to watch movie le, 17歲的天空. It's a 2004 Taiwan production and starring Tony Yang and Duncan Zhou. I really love the plot of this movie,

'Naive countryman Chou T'ien-Tsai goes to Taipei to meet an internet friend face-to-face. Being a romantic, and believing in 'true love' (he even has a book called Love Is A Kind Of Faith), he is sorely disappointed when his friend suggests they have sex with no love. T'ien instead goes to a bar and runs into his ex-classmate Yu, and in the process meets the 'Number One Playboy' Bai Tie Nan, who is notorious for one night stands. T'ien very quickly develops a liking towards Bai.

After the night at the bar and becoming roommates with Yu, T'ien gets a job as a pool attendant and has several run-ins with Bai, who seems to like T'ien mutually. Scenes with Bai and his psychologist show that Bai has a problem kissing people. After being advised to practice kissing a mirror and then a dummy, both of which fail to help him, he tries to kiss his longtime friend, but can't bring himself to do it.

One night, T'ien shows up at Bai's doorstep and they end up having sex consensually. True to his nature, Bai disappears the next day, leaving his friend to turn up at his house and explain that 'he hopes you don't misunderstand'. T'ien, hurt and unknowing of the entire story behind Bai's intimacy issues, leaves a message saying that 'this kind of misunderstanding won't happen again'.

T'ien prepares to leave his roommate's dwelling and return to his own home. In the meantime, T'ien's friends corner Bai, who admits that he hurt the person he loves. After a silent prayer for a second chance, he sees T'ien heading up an escalator. His first attempt to apologise fails, and T'ien literally runs away. He nearly gets run down by a scooter, but Bai saves him and they make up.

The ending credits include a short segment on the three supporting cast members and their somewhat stereotyped views upon gay fashion.'
Plot summary by Wikipedia (22 Oct 2008)

The overall of the movie is very cute and comedic. And the part I loved most about the movie is after Tie Nan saved T'ien-Tsai from being knock down by a scooter nearing the end. And the dialogue was:

Tie Nan: I found the answers to your questions. sin2+cos2 equals one. The seven warring lords are Han, Zhao, Wei, Chu, Yen, Chi, Chin. The 3 tenses of the word "love" are love, love, love.
T'ien-Tsai: You see.. Even love can pass away.
Tie Nan: But.. we can run after it.
T'ien-Tsai: Run?
Tie Nan: And chase it back.
T'ien-Tsai: My feet are tired.
Tie Nan: I'll carry you.

Soo sweet right?! But in the whole movie, I guess I like Chou T'ien-Tsai more.. and I think Yu is very well resembled by one of my friends eh.. Andy Goh =P Hahaha..

Click HERE(crunchyroll) and start streaming Formula 17 today!!!

'In Your Eyes' by Kylie Minogue

What on earth am I meant to do

In this crowded place there is only you
Was gonna to leave now I have to stay
You have taken my breath away

Is the world still spinning around
I don't feel like coming down

It's in your eyes
I can tell what your thinking
My heart is sinking too
It's no surprise
I've been watching you lately
I want to make it with you

Destiny has a funny way
When it comes and takes all your cares away
I can't think of a single thing
Other than what a beautiful state I'm in

Is the world still spinning around
I don't feel like coming down

It's in your eyes
I can tell what your thinking
My heart is sinking too
It's no surprise
I've been watching you lately
I want to make it with you
(www.azlyrics.com, 25 Sep 2008)

It's a wonderful 2002 song, which makes me move and groove... Ahh.. I gonna stop blogging start moving le... TTYL (Talk To You Later)

X+Y = SEX? Ya this is TRUE

I came across this interesting "thing" in Trevvy today and say this in Missing Connection and caught my attention. This "unusual" post seems to be slightly 'bo liao' (in Hokkien. Chinese: wu liao. English: boring) But then again, since it took my attention, so just read it. And so it says:

'x + y = love or sex??

X + Y = SEX and Not Love right? or ?

Ha Ha
Boy + Girl = Love & Sex
Boy + Boy = SEX
Why?

Simple math logic pls as below......
Boy + Girl = Love & Sex
Reason : They are normally steady and this is normal cos they will ended up having a proper family and get legal married.

Boy + Boy = SEX
Reason : Both Boy having Sex is not proper in local by law. However.....

No Sex = No Love = Everything is NO Cos CAN't Click pls

Have SEX = Can Click = Everything also OK

Thus, if everything is = OK....So it means Both of these 2 boy are attached either as lover or as sex buddy or as good friend or as close shopping buddy etc.....

To the cute guy who is looking for the ans this is the reply cos U are a cute nice TOP but too bad I am Top also MUCK haha'
by crystalgear (24 Oct 2008)

I read this a total of five to ten times, and start thinking in my mind of everything.. whether it make sense or not, whether is that information accurate, the nature of my analytical state of mind's response, etc. And here's my few conclusions:

"Top" gay man can't think that deeply into a specific issue without the emphasize on Sex. As of on top, it is clearly stated so with some loopholes, such as, 'Boy + Boy = SEX; Reason : Both Boy having Sex is not proper in local by law' and 'No Sex = No Love = Everything is NO'. For the first instance, we are comparing this statement with 'Boy + Girl = Love & Sex; Reason : They are normally steady and this is normal cos they will ended up having a proper family and get legal married.' The obvious differentiation in this two variations are Boy + Boy and Boy + Girl.. Sociology once again (Anson's and mine hot topic). The problem with this sentence lies in the norm expectations of Boy are meant to have a Girl instead of Boy, which if you look properly into the aspect of the even BIGGER picture, it displays uncertainty with this norm implications.

Law comes into the picture of Love. Should it be the case in the first place? Just because Matrimony bonding are recognized by Law, this this stuff is legalised by Law, that that thing is not legalised by Law, thus people thought Law is the next thing to depend on. BIG mistake.. Law is formed on the society upbringing and acceptance. Human forms the society when human belongs to you and I. But in this 'you and I' it does not take into consideration of a lot of things, for instance, a more related consideration is sexual orientation. Why? Cause Law is suppose to be a fair medium, non-biased. And since human is imperfect (a literally correct statement), then we can make a reasonable assumption saying that Law is imperfect. When it comes to something non-definable subject such as Love, it should refrain from the implications of Law even if Law prosecutes.

'Have SEX = Can Click = Everything also OK'??? The ability to enjoy an activity (in this case sex) really represents the ability to have relate two person together.. is this even a good assumption? Coming out from a gay man (in this case, I think top or bottom isn't an issue), I guess, the only thing that actually went through the mind coming out with such equation is actually the desired part of outcome, Sex. The "body of the formula" that suppose to be the components to make up the answer has not been carefully and accurately considered... FAIL! Let me put it in a more straightforward manner: 'Have SEX = Can Click' is it totally true? 'Have SEX = Everything also OK' is it totally true? 'Can Click = Everything also OK', is it totally true? How about a NO for an answer.

From all these, I learned three new things: I sure am ART-streamed talented. Ignorant people is still running free hurting innocent (somewhere in this picture was me). It's gonna take hell of a effort for me to find that someone.

P.S. In case anyone thinking if the cute guy is it me, the answer is no, I was just a passer-by of the C.A.P. post.

It's not wise to keep Wisdom Teeth II

And the day come upon me like a stumbling crowds of sea wave. I am going to visit a private recommended surgeon somewhere near Tanglin Mall, Orchard Boulevard: Camden Medical Centre. Today is the very first time I felt lost and helpless when trying to locate the place, used to be very dependent on someone or even anyone to guide and direct the route, and then, I was all alone. Haha.. Anxious I was, telling myself 'I'm Singaporean, sure won't get lost one' and on the other hand, I was perspiring away.

The temperature was hot and humid and the road was busy as ever. Finally, I found it.. Camden Medical Centre, wa-la~~! I felt as thought I have just discovered a whole new place where the whole building is of medical hub, like a lost city like that. Anyway, my purpose there is still to face my remaining fear right, extraction of wisdom teeth part 2. The surgeon I was recommended to is a fine man call Dr. Winston Tan and the unit is called 'The Oral Maxillofacial Practice'. And so, I gave him the referral letter and my X-ray sheet..

The price in comparison to the previous time at National Dental Centre is so much more affordable (God Damn NDC...). I won't list the price here due to the discreptancy that could arise from variations of prices with other. And the most important thing is, all the expenses was charged to Medisave. Wow-wee.. Financially saved, I agreed to do the surgery there and then lo. Constitution to the overall experience was Price, Pain, Uncomfortableness, Time, Efficiency and Facility, and I would say it is considerably Great! I don't feel much pain after the extraction (but I did have enormous headache) and the rest are relatively Great. This means actually tooth extraction isn't always a fearful thing, but just how the surgeon does it.

After the extraction, out of fear, since my previous extraction I experienced intolerable amount of pain that will just kill my appetite and mood off, I immediately drop by Mac Donald at Tanglin Mall and have my first dosage of painkiller. And after that, bookstore hoping from Wheelock Place Borders to Takashimaya Kinokuniya. And then, time flies pretty fast and it's time to meet Hong Joon at The Cathay, Aston le. I think I may have frightened Hong Joon for the very first time to display the black and long face of mine with huge fractions of silence and major bad mood.

A word to Hong Joon, 'sorry if I've ruined part of your hope to meet me in a gloomy working day with my bad experience I was facing. But, nonetheless, what is planned to be done, I'll still do it (with minimum complaint and maximum tolerant), but don't ask for anything more than what I can.. Those silly sympathy doesn't work with me, eg. if not, why not you just go. Thanks for your accompany anyway.'

Oh, after a dinner and me shopping for my "later dinner", we depart. One thing, the bleeding is pretty bad that it's still bleeding after 6hours after surgery. Hope it stops soon.. And looking forward for my delicious solid food once again. Yummy yummy stuffs, I think I'm craving for pasta right now.. Aww, so sad gotta suppress it for now. Gotta catch lotsa rest from the busy and long day, ciaos..

P.S. I guess that's why I haven't been online for the whole day. Misses my Facebook and MSN.

Bishonen (HK)

Oooh yeah, I watch it two times in total and I quite like the movie. I don't really know what's there for me to say but that the narration is in Mandarin, subtitle is in English and the movie is in Cantonese. I personally don't understand Cantonese I got to admit, but, with the help of accurate subtitle, it makes the whole movie so much more enjoyable and understandable for me. And of course, there's Stephen Fung (main actor), Daniel Wu and Terence Yin to lookout for.

The overall feeling of the movie is something like 1/8 of gay documentary, 3/8 sex and love, 4/8 gay lifestyle in Hong Kong.. I don't know, at least that's how I feel so. Hmm.. And also, one thing, it is pretty sad that those acted as the calefare roles seems to be of very unacceptable and weird uncles of certain negative looks eh. Feels so sad if that's the true case in Hong Kong's style.

The only thing I dislike about the movie is the complications of the storyline, makes the whole picture really bad, and messy too! But it's still acceptable, since there's Daniel Wu.. LOL. I used to like Stephen Fung more, but Daniel Wu looks so cute and young in this movie. It's a 1998 productions and directed by someone called Yeung Fan.. Hmm, didn't heard of it before. Anyway, I personally would think it's deserve to watch kindda movie bah. For you guys who haven't watch it before, maybe it's time.

Click HERE to watch (Crunchyroll).

And in the evening, I watched Asterix: Asterix and the Vikings. It's a 2006 Animated Movie.. feeling good watching something pretty old school. It's totally fun and interesting, but not the best I can say.

In the book Asterix and the Normans a group of fearless Viking Warriors travels to Asterix's village in a quest to discover the meaning of fear, as they had heard that fear gives you wings. Unfortunately, it just so happened that the Gaulish Village fear only one thing, that the sky may fall on their heads, and the Vikings are out of luck. That is until they encounter Vitalstatistix's cowardly young nephew, Justforkix who Asterix and Obelix are teaching how to be a man.

This is where the film deviates from the book, specifically developing " the Nordic aspects of the storyline". The Vikings abduct Justforkix and bring him back to their homeland. Asterix and Obelix must travel to the icy Norway to rescue him, with almost half the movie taking place here.

For the movie, the Normans have been changed to the Vikings which is more dramatic and iconic.
Synopsis by Asterix NZ (30 Dec 2007)

The Movie as below:




Don't you just love it.. And the ending is always sweet (not the 'happy ever after' kind, but is the 'until next time') Gosh I love Asterix!

Grumble Grumble...

Hmm.. Today I'm pretty grumpy and I don't know why also. But wasn't so bad lah, just that I ain't in the best form to understand and just feel a lot of things could have been better or so.. Well, where shall I start my grumbling. Went clubbing yesterday and had a fun night, but was really dead beat after the night of fun and music (no focus on people). Was with Joash, Ian, Daniel and Darius for the night, very usual kind of clubbing to me (of course is as usually fun for me as well without the need to emphasize). Got home by a usual 4 plus as well and carried myself to the bed and snoring away.

Didn't sleep much, at least I don't feel the replenish of energy after the sleep. Had this very sloppy and slack feeling, but then, I didn't cuddle further into the afternoon when I used to. Didn't feel like it and as well, stomach growled on me. Hmm.. so ignored the fact that I was still tired, I go and make breakfast, mind you, 11 plus a.m. is still breakfast (not brunch, yet). And surf net there after..

Whether fortunately or unfortunately, sky cry out loud to me, that is one of the least expected surprises that really hits the jackpot to ruin my day. Didn't affect me a lot though, just the fact that I'll feel so comfy MSN-ing and dampen the mood to go out and gotta carry a foldable umbrella out which made me gotta carry a bag out, when I don't have the habit of carrying a bag when unnecessary.

When on MRT, I suppose noone will expect can would expect this, Kent (my didi) called me but after a second of ringing, it died off. And I didn't even have the chance to pickup the call and missed it. The problem lies in, I know that it's Kent who purposely call and hang up on me, hoping that I would call him back. Possibilities of wanting to ask me go out, chat, or just manage his mood, but the thing is, what's the deal with him and his call thing? Never mind, shall ignore that, this really is the majority contribution to make me feel even more vex, since I don't want to call him back but yet noone to ascertain my uncertainty feeling. Obnoxious.. Back to the thing. And of course was late, well, everyone was late =) except the planner of the evening, Hong Joon.

And so, Hong Joon, Lloyd, Nick, Derek, Thong Kee, William and I met up. Then we went to this cafe thingy, a small and cosy place, not fanciful at all, but just a normal looking unit. With square couches on the left and huge wooden tables on the right, and we had dinner there.. The cafe is Minds Cafe. Actually I heard of the place so long time ago, but it's just being spoke of over a period of mere and scarce few weeks from my cousin. 'Oooh, Minds Cafe have game A, game B, game C and ... and its this fun, that fun... how fun...' Hmm.. you know sometimes can get annoying to think of it back then.

Anyway, let's start with the food shall we? The food to what I think, I ordered something pretty simple actually, at some places they call it Chicken Cutlet, and them they call it Chicken Platter.. Oh well, whatever they call it, I would still fail it, it sucked big time. Hey dude (Minds Cafe) it's not the matter of naming and pictures of food you know, at least have the normal Kopitiam Western food standards and I could have perceived it better. Say 1 out of 5 is what I would grade it. The environment is pretty noisy and can get even noisier if more people are present. Well, it's pretty alright for so, but not over-doing bah.

The games are fun. Should have suggested to eat dinner elsewhere and go there just for the board games and the whole thing would have been so much better. It's merely $2.50 per hour, imagine with seven person, all we need is just to pay $2.50 each and we could've play for seven hours le. Drinks, I had Iced Latte Float (Latte with ice cream), slightly below average I would say, but the brownies were good. That's the only food that I thought was above average. Now to the board games, it does have quite a variety of games and they're all pretty new to me, except for some very old school games (e.g. Monopoly, Risks, Uno, etc).

Oh, Anson went dating today. Was pretty amazing to me, since he doesn't really have the intention to meet this guy and just decided to meet him for the sake of doing so. Thought he could join me for dinner (lucky did not..) and talk to me about the date. From Anson's sms, to my interpretation, seems pretty neutral and below. So sad.. but oh well, I wanna dedicate the below Music Video to my Family, especially the left single ones, and most importantly for Anson.

Too Much (Spice Girls, 1997)


Love is blind, as far as the eye can see
Deep and meaningless words to me
Easy lover, I need a friend
Road to nowhere, twist and turns but will this never end
Well my dear you know that he pleases me (Pleases me)
But short-term solution ain't no resolution
There ain't no release for me...

Too much of something is bad enough
But somethings coming over me to make me wonder
Too much of nothing is just as tough
I need to know the way to feel to keep me satisfied

Unwrap yourself from around my finger
Hold me too tight or left to linger
Something fine, built to last
Slipped up there, I guess we're running out of time too fast
Yes my dear you know he soothes me (Moves me)
There's no complication, there's no explanation
It's just a groove in me

Too much of something is bad enough (Bad enough)
But something's coming over me to make me wonder
Too much of nothing is just as tough (Just as tough)
I need to know the way to feel to keep me satisfied

What part of no don't you understand (Understand, understand)
I want a man, not a boy who thinks he can...

Boy who thinks he can...
Too much of something is bad enough
But something's coming over me to make me wonder
Too much of nothing is just as tough
I need to know the way to feel to keep me satisfied

Too much of something is bad enough
But somethings coming over me to make me wonder
Too much of nothing is just as tough
I need to know the way to feel to keep me satisfied

Too much of nothing so why don't we give it a try
Too much of something we're probably living a lie
Too much of nothing so why don't we give it a try
Too much of something we're probably living a lie
Too much of nothing so why don't we give it a try
Too much of something we're probably living a lie
LyricWiki.org (18 Oct 2008)

Restless is bad.. Mm'kay

Out of boredom, maybe you may wanna see the below flashes to cheer up the day a little more. I thought it was kindda cute.. But one thing, the stuffs (i.e. songs, words, etc) are in Korean Language. Theme say trying the feature the love between a rabbit (female) and a cat (male) was unaccepted in the society (the storyline). Love at first sight, avoidance, consideration, trying things out, etc etc. Very romantic and action, very sweeet. And nice art drawings, and cute everything.

There she is!!! by SamBakZa.net (10 April 2004)

There she is!!! Step 2: Cake Dance by SamBakZa.net (11 March 2005)

There she is!!! Step 3: Doki & Nabi by SamBakZa.net (5 June 2008)

There she is!!! Step 4: Paradise by SamBakZa.net (24 August 2008)

Hugs and Kisses,
JamesW850i

www.slide.com

This website was on for quite a long time now, and I never thought of using it before, only until just. As you can see I have done a bit of "accessorizing" my blog with slide.com and lots of gorgeous guys/men/boys picture. Ooh, I sure am excited, and it sure is obvious so, as I only just started to learn how easy to use the functions to get things done and I already come up with 2 slides-full of pictures. For one, the functions are pretty simple and it doesn't give you too much choices, neither does the web provides too little options and flexibility to the customization you may prefer.

Oh, on the other hand, it has very compatible functionality with the source you wish to crop the picture from, let's not go further in details what, why and how. And it sure is addictive looking, browsing, searching for all the nice, sexy, hot guys pictures and photos out there. Hey, good things must be shared... And wow, I was ogling at my first slide I made for hours and feel how nice it's to make something out of nothing within hours. And not to forget all the hot, sexy and cute guys in the pictures are simply irresistible.

Then hours later, I decided to go Trevvy.com and find some sources of hot pictures to start on my second slide. One thing I wish to make things clear here, none of the pictures, photos or media belongs to me. All the credits goes to the respective websites and web pages, the owner/author of this blog shall hold no liabilities to materials that is in placed, okay? Back to where we stopped. It was pretty fun digging pictures from the most current right down to the least, and I most probably I have viewed more than 1,500 pictures altogether in my second slide.

Nonetheless, it was a fun fun day and I feel so happy as suddenly, I feel my blog is so "beautiful". I hope you guys like what I picked, as those are all customized to my taste. As in here, there is only me, myself and I. =) Muahahaha.. Er, anyway, feel free to leave comments and grade the slide overall by clicking the star on it's upper-left hand corner where there is a star. The grading goes from 1 star right down to 5. Oh, and you know what? Overall time taken for me to finish this segment of accessorizing takes about 6-7 Hours. Can you believe that?! Gosh.. Anyway, I am going off to bed now.. Ta ta and bon appetite!

NOTE: NO picture displayed is sexual-inclined or intended. And NO guy/man/boy are harmed in the making process. Thank you.
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In the afternoon, I dig up a movie called 'Boys Love'. It's a 2006 Japanese production which of course involve to terms, 'Love' and 'Boys'. I would say the overall feeling of the movie after watching it, it gives a very impulsive and sad expression to the movie's storyline. In the whole movie, I would grade it roughly 4 out of 5, thumbs up! Maybe it's because I am naturally turned on by the guys and the nature of reality, I find it relatively unique with a touch of nice. The main actor, Yoshikazu Kotani, was really cute.. You should have a see for yourself.

'Just doing his job, magazine editor Taishin Mamiya (Yoshikazu Kotani) interviews high school model Noeru Kisaragi (Takumi Saito). Despite Noeru's bad attitude, an enchanting picture of the ocean he draws leads Mamiya to invite him out for dinner afterwards. They connect at the restaurant, but while in the bathroom there Noeru solicits Mamiya sexually. The next morning, Noeru's office calls the magazine office where Mamiya works. "Your editor was rude. Have him come and apologize." When Mamiya goes to Noeru's house to deliver the apology, he sees Noeru with a dirty-looking man. Mamiya is shocked to discover at that moment that his interest in Noeru goes beyond article research--he truly wants to know more about him.'
Synopsis by Crunchyroll, 24 Apr 2008

Hmm.. And the sky grew dark and start a huge downpour like now. Oh, and also, one thing I really loved about the movie is the quotes, i.e. Shakespeare. Below is YouTube's Boys Love Trailer.. Hope you enjoy it as much as I did, cause I teared.

29,854,177

It's not my bank account amount that I got. Neither is it the number of hand phone contacts I got in my cell, nor the number of times I've breathed until this moment. It's to my amusement, it's the number that my blog hit with the counter.. Oh goosh, I can remember the last time that I actually even glimpse at it was only 9, and the construction of this blog is no longer then 6 months.. @_@

Hmm.. Anyway, thanks, I guess there's really people reading anything, anytime, anywhere on the triple Ws huh. To this very time, I felt flattered. Although it's not some kind of Oscar or Noble achievement, but its definitely is something I don't get to feel everyday. On top of thanking you guys, the readers of my little, plain and simple blog with no spectacular blog skin or blog designs, I wish to thanks also, the nice tools and helps I get to post up in my blogs: imeem, MyPersonality.info, Alexa, Liquid Generation, Crunchyroll, YouTube, Wikipedia, etc. (If I miss out naming any, I beg for pardon)

And lastly, to ALL my friends that really know me (in person, not just in name) Thank You! Hugs and Kisses to all that read this.. This Monday isn't that bad after all huh. Thanks for everything again, everyone. With this encouragement, support and appreciation, there's more interesting, soul intriguing, mind blasting, fundamentally correct Answers of all Forms to come.

'To Infinity and beyond...' (by Buzz Lightyear in Toy Story)

Go Go G-Boys

Hmm.. Bored, ran into this hilarious movie, pretty good laugh. Synopses is as:

'Hung (Tae Sattawat Sethakorn) needs money to pay for the debt that his girlfriend made. He goes to a gay contest to gain the money, but finally discovers his deep feeling toward the same sex. Shin (唐振剛) and Hung are close buddies since childhood. In an attempt to pay off a heavy debt Hung pretends to be gay to compete in a Gay beauty contest. The involvement of Jay (余發揚), an anti gay cop, assigned to investigate a threat letter claim to ruin the contest and the growing passion between Shin and Hung form the crux of this comic caper.'
(Crunchyroll, 24 Apr 2008)

Just click HERE to watch it (it comes in two parts)! Enjoy.. Oh FYI, I used to like Tae a lot, cause he looks so kawaii~neh.. and his songs of course.

'Hurt' by Christina Aguilera

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you
(www.azlyrics.com, 9 Oct 2008)

I really love this song so much, and it somewhat speaks of what is trapped quietly within me for the past months. And for today, I decide to let go of everything, every single thing that I'm afraid to face. Or so, I tried... Reminiscing into the past is just not going to help, I think it's time to detach from all bother and be free. I hope you'll like this song. Hugs and kisses!

P.S. Still pretty down nowadays. It's okay, hopefully it's catching up.

Which Pixar Character I am.

A round of drum row please... ...

Signs & Symptoms

This is what my "5th October" says:

'The Eight of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in space. I am true to myself and will only regret the chances I don't take to seek or follow my hearts desire. I turn away from or make a clean sweep of that which does not honor or sustain my passion and love, and in this, I am not afraid to be alone. I am empowered to move forward or make space and my gift is letting go.' -Astrology.com

I think these three days makes a one very important point, one that either I am true to myself, or I am not true to myself but I still have the time to change and be true to myself. It's been a big bother to me, and all started right from the point of me having a new hair cut (yup! I have a new hair style now...) and I don't know where to place the end to the boundary of extend. Haunting season is close and I think I got to face myself soon, and I know I am not going to like it. I can still remember the very past of me when I was single after my first break-off with my first love... I am almost like Autism patient, quietly staying in my room staring blankly at the wall, or ceiling (when I should be at the internet and outside).

Used to do lots of evaluation and re-evaluation in the past, but when I came to become busy and more busy, I lost my rhythm and do lesser and lesser each time I give an excuse for myself. "Oh, everything is going well, don't think I should evaluate. In fact I should appreciate..." And now, is such a long distant thing which I got to conduct even though I am not very keen in doing it. So many feelings have lost through the brush on time, and what's left is the memory lane.

'I am empowered to move forward or make space and my gift is letting go.' Sigh, it is pretty obvious to me that the card is speaking to me today pretty precisely. Usually, it would be more blunt in what it's try to say. And this is not very helpful, so to speak cause it's followed before.. 'I (turn away from/make) a clean sweep of that which does not (honor/sustain) my passion and love, and in this, I am not afraid to be alone.' Trying to make me choose what I gonna do with this.. Gonna sigh again.

My Quote section came in this:

Make the most of your regrets; never smother your sorrow, but tend and cherish it till it comes to have a separate and integral interest. To regret deeply is to live afresh.
~Henry David Thoreau

And then, now that I am thinking of what Anson said to me on the very Sunday early-time. I guess maybe he got me this time, hit right on the nail. Really starting to doubt on myself and everything else I did. Was I hiding? Was I running from the problem? Did I faced it, or did I thought I faced it? How come all the used to be answered doesn't seem to have any answer now.. Pretty screwed-up at this time of the period in the year. How come must there be so much pain to feel and so little sweetness to taste...

It is either God or Fate hinting me intensively on something alright... Turning away from the screen and start pondering...

P.S. Even though all my references are of Wikipedia, but always remember they are just for references and nothing else.

This Friday is not being looked forward for.

Unfortunately, it still came, Friday. A very BIG sigh... Just by thinking of it, I am already not please of it. Let me come up with some reasons (or excuses whichever you pick) and stimulate my vexation further and get over with it.

1. I CAN'T GO CLUBBING TOMORROW. With my current situation of oral problem, I got to skip my favorite hangout place, weekly ritual and "anti-depressant dosage". No place to let me go crazy, release all the emotional compactness in me: stress, anger, frustration, irritation, etc. No place to see cute guys, eye-candies, and my favorite: average and nice. ^_^ No music, no 'dance like there's no tomorrow', no 'I'll hunt you down', no 'When I grow up,'.

2. MY ECONOMICS ASSIGNMENT DEADLINE IS AROUND THE CORNER. You know, I was never strong at my Economics based modules. In fact, Economics is my worst, and the module that how I wish I can really keep up with. It's not that is is boring, or what. I really liked Economics, as it really explains a lot of things that happens and no one can do about it other then say, 'Improve Technology Level' and 'Government Policies'.

3. TOMORROW GOTTA SHOP FOR PINK COLOR CLOTHS. I am gonna attend Irwan kakak's Hari Raya Gathering and put some form of 'denominator' as, 'If possible, please come in pink'. And as a family, I gotta show encouragement to this. Sometimes, as a family, to try and do things as together is an important part to keep the spirit felt. I think you won't get it also lah. But when given 'yes' or 'no', I will definitely choose yes.

4. MY FOLLOWUP TO THE NATIONAL DENTAL CENTRE IS NEARER. I still can't forget how god damn (*sorry*) expensive the whole thing was. And they better not add anymore further costs to my this incident. I think my this revisit is to take away the sewing from my operated gum. Of course, I hope it won't hurts even further. Hey, I have reasonably suffered for 2-3 days already, and I don't intend to suffer anymore longer. Although I am planning to take away my another 2 more wisdom teeth soon.

5. I AM ALONE. I still can't adapt totally to the feeling of alone. Even if not literally alone, but alone in a very deep meaning in all. I can't figure out what's the big deal, since I love the idea to be single and alone. But, in this case, alone is not a good thing. Maybe all I am looking for is someone to take care of me when I need to feeling of care and love and stuffs. Haiz.. Or maybe this just marks the end of my complaint that I am left with nothing more to really reason about my Friday blues...

Anyway, I am going off to do my Economics assignment now.. Gotta complete by tonight and submit physical tomorrow, chat later. Have a Great weekend people. <3

What's I'm Missing...

I feel so terrible, now that I am having a wound in my mouth and I can only consume soft foods and non-stimulative foods. Let me recap what have I been having for meals:

• Campbell soup with bread
• Milo drink with biscuits
• Soft-boiled eggs
• Cooked oat-meal
• Porridge/Congee
• Curry dip with bread
• Fruit Juice
• Chocolate (lucky, this is one of my fav.)
  

Haiz... On the other hand, I discover how much I missed all those yummy yummy food which I thought was normal and okay. Not much mood left to blog out more complaints also, so I have attached one of the South Park's episode on 'Tooth'. Click HERE and enjoy!