A little fight over coffee

It's been a day plus since my last argument. It's really been kind of sad to me that having to have a handful of straight friends left, and yet, I have to rebuke my friend in the most straightforward way. And in the most sensible manner, retaliation makes the re-bounce twice as powerful, that is called nature. It is very unlike me to really share my thinking with someone who is truly different from me in all ways. And I can tell you is, it is my first such fight with this one.

Christopher, someone I knew for two years plus ever since my Diploma in MDIS, until now that I am in TMC. A little info about this guy, he is considered an extreme of me to my perspective. Age gap is huge, behavior, attitude, mindset, etc. We always doesn't lack of things to "talk" about. In a lot of ways, we in return will get into something like a debate or a cross of ideas of "what else it could be". In most every case, we will little by little brushed from topics to topics and back and forth, and ended up with laughter.

And yesterday, I met up with Anson. Something about yesterday remained in my heart and spinning until now, and it is the word "assertive". Assertive being 'confidently aggressive or self-assured; positive: aggressive; dogmatic' (Dictionary.com). And yet apart from just the word, Anson was saying something about trying to be assertive and not aggressive. This sets my mind thinking if was I an assertive person or an aggressive person when I was having the tea talk with Christopher.

And seemingly, this time, Christopher's heart-trapped issue gushed out his unstoppable mouth, and I smelt trouble. It was like suddenly, he say about his inconfidence about last failed relationship, and next saying that sometimes I should feel for him when saying something, then next saying people can't change how he think of things, and jump and jump and jump irrationally. And yes, I was caught off-guard, but the more important thing is, he can't take differentiation, for example, understanding what is socially accepted from tolerated.

Oh well, this is sometimes I hate about straight guys, they just can't "think" the way things are. I never have the same problems with my other friends, nor ladies I spoke to. But one thing for sure, I am still who I am. Politically right doesn't refers to truly right. Right was said and came to conclusion with Anson long time before, that right was comparatively so. So for now, that shall be what I am using to guide my thinking. Till then, may my mind be enlighten further.