Something about Me, Something about Gay and Something about Love XIII

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As previously, we stopped at

But noone has ever thought that a stormy night usually comes after a calm night. Just when things compiled in itself, it just speaks for itself. That should be considered as a all auto-righteous way. Elvis made his move.. Elvis finally shifted his pawns and made his attack. In the whole event, Elvis managed to get popularity and acceptance so many more folds compared to Benji, and with that, he finally took his chance.

Actions to my interpretations: Elvis took the chance and effort to segregate my group of friends during the very one eventful outing to Sentosa. A huge group of people was around, people I was close to, people I wasn't close to, and people I may not know. Knowing that Benji wasn't popular and accepting to most, Elvis purposely put it across to divide all the people from me and Benji in hoping that he may felt left out and unwelcome and that he should feel ashamed and awkward. It was a success..

But who would understand it so? Probably it wasn't all so obvious. Neither was intention a visible entity all on its own. I fear of over-throwing Benji's position was just all so easy, as to the group of close friends I had, Benji was just someone no more than James' boyfriend. But lucky it was just a short moment then it would be calling a day, as to me, it was all intolerable, but yet, I can't just express it out plainly like that.

Chinese would have this saying, 'paper can never conceal fire'. It was lucky for me, that someone stood by my side knowing and observed all this in a form of witness. And that someone is none other then Shahul korkor. Hugs! From the day of outing, days later, one fine day, we met up and decided to go for supper, and to my astonishment, he brought up the topic so. I mean, back then, I was not so close to Shahul korkor yet and we didn't really have so much of one-to-one talk prior to that, and we finally did.

Shahul korkor brought up all his observations bits and pieces and with my side of story and bits and pieces, we compiled up. And finally, a second person I could share the fear and burden with. It sounded all so quick and uncontrollable that things just appeared and symptoms just appeared and it was all declared as beginning. Shahul and I had long chats and heart-to-heart conversations thereafter, then do I discovered that Shahul korkor is such a precious and talented gem.

In the same night, a roar-y rough night took it's place. After the supper, we were supposedly to buy the supper for Sabrina and Joash as well. Well, Sabrina and Joash as well as Elvis was at Joash's at the moment, so thought of good faith, we should. After the supper, Shahul and I planned to re-queue for the same stall to get fresh packs for them, but who knows, the next minute, Joash's SMS came hitting us like as though we were obliged for something or similar. I agreed it was late, but at the same time, we didn't expected them to wait starving for our supper.

And with all the aggression, we choose not to get them the supper, after all, Joash said no need to get any for them anymore. With all pleasure, we didn't. And since we didn't need to do anything after our supper, Shahul korkor and I so choose to seat down at my void deck and chat. With Elvis by Joash's and Sabrina's side, things couldn't get any better. With all the long chats at my void deck where Shahul korkor and I sat, there comes Elvis, Joash and Sabrina marched towards us fiercely. Not that I am afraid, but more like what's the problem.

Joash started rattling down at us, well, neither I nor Shahul felt was at wrong, it doesn't took us any form of effort to defend for our actions. But what seems to be the real problem was that in some way or another, none of those confrontations was over the supper but was with the bad-mouthing Elvis had over them before they were there. It was doubt, but was obvious later on so right of my guesses.

From Sabrina, comes ignorant and child-like talk whichever is in her mind. And whenever she speaks of anything, it was always so pure and random. Nothing of badness, just that she was the most easy to emotionally-controlled over and probably made use of by the people around her. Mentioning things like why did you quarrel? Go over and talk to Elvis. You should pick Elvis over Benji you know that? And a lot of controlled talk.

Of course, with Shahul korkor and mine's busy brain, it seems almost like a tag team brain gush jumping into defense. And Joash, obviously still ain't satisfied for us not getting Sabrina the supper, demanded that we should. Well, we did after that, to shut him up. That night, Sabrina was the biggest weapon of all just as her tears rolled down her face. But I choose not to give in to Elvis' manipulation of mind and facts. We stood. But there after, I have lay my mind that Elvis shall begone in my life after the night, no questions asked. Disappointed with mixed feelings, but nonetheless, if things had to end that way the people chosen, who is to deny?

~Fin~ (End of Season 1)