How to tell someone that you love them?

Personality Test Result:

Here is the analysis: FACE-TO-FACE
Just go to see him or her and let he/she know how you feel, straight from the heart. That would be okay for a brave one like you.
Source: Quiz Box

This is something which I don't know about. Something so strange and (I presumed) very hard to believe. I thought I am quite passive in something like that.. The answer is so brave-hearted. What did you got? Care to share...

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Something about Me, Something about Gay and Something about Love XI

Disclaimer: All Rights Reserved, avoid further reading if HOMOPHOBIC. Emphasis that there might have contents not suited for the eyes of 21 and below. The events depicted in this blog entry is fictitious. Any similarity to any person living or dead is merely coincidental.

As previously, we stopped at

And this is when problems arise, when things changes, that when things that used to be done just stopped getting done. I detests something like that. And for that, I have more reasons to learn to be more independent. So that it would not add excessive weightage to the partner, and more importantly to the love, at the end of the day. And I finally learned that I do not appreciate short-term showing of love and care, I appreciate consistency of love and care. And my night (or day) for that day ended so.

Getting busy with my things from time to time just makes my day so relaxed and easy. Well, but since Elvis confessions, my mind has been overworked. Logical me doesn't always produce reasons and doesn't always have an answer. When under-pressure, my mind ticked just the way wheels and axles do. Work endlessly, but not smartly. One side was someone whom doesn't have charisma, doesn't know how to do things, react to things and present himself, but love me and give me a lot of attention so much so that I was never alone.

And the other, someone I felt so close to, so individual and so comfortable speaking to, hearing from and be with, that loves me but isn't someone I am with. But only comes out after I am attached, and wants my attention and most of all, be with me. By not regretting the decisions I had made, I thought, probably Elvis would learn that it is impossible to be with me and love me like couples do and would eventually fall back on someone who loves him more than his love for me and fall for the guy.

And for me, I thought, as for Benji, I loved him not because of his looks nor his ability to love, but for the fact that he is completely sincere and was so fully contributive to the relationship, I should give him more chances to pull both of us closer as boyfriend. A lot of things I could have easily done with my capabilities and ability, but thought would be nice to let my partner do it for me. And for this, we would grow to live and behave like what couples would, and learn of each other ways in the time to come.

Elvis did not chose let go eventually, it grew in him to be even more hopeful then ever to be with me in hoping Benji and I would break off. Some situation I personally would label it as possession over love. This, this, this thing called hopeful was the lesser evil that kept Elvis motivated on the idea of being with me. And it did. And it all seemed so clear after we had a confrontation later in September. What was I thinking and what was his stand was all in a mess.. And Elvis grew to suffer, and I grew more and more used to the feeling of suffer.

If you were thinking how to see the worst side of human character, probably this would be one of the most prominent way. To see how people dig their own grave and stand in their own stake of interest, and feel for themselves thinking that 'look, you are wrong, this should be the way!' After that, I went into silence. Don't see any point in arguing. Don't see any meaning in defending anymore. It was all seen and felt that way, the way that it shouldn't be, but it did.

In the same month days and days later, one day out of the blues, I woke up from the flustering phoning conversation I heard from the living room, it's my mother. Trying to jot down contacts and numbers and locations and dates and calling people, etc. I crawled out of my bed like always. And to my shock, my grandmother has passed away... she was my mother's mother who was living in Malaysia back then. With us not having by her side, and now that she was at her death bed, no wonder my mum panicked that badly.

I was in a state of blankness. Didn't know what to do, neither do I know what I could do. But one thing for sure, we must all get ready to make a trip down to Malaysia in the short period after gotten to know the news. SMSed Elvis saying that I won't be in Singapore for days which I didn't know the length as well, neither do I know which day and time exactly do my family make the trip down. And in the midst of all uncertainty, Elvis extended his help saying why not he drive us there..

In the request, two things crossed my mind, first, my family was having a hard time now, why do he want to make my family felt bad for something extra. And second was that, I SMSed is to inform, not to request for aid. Arrangements were best made by my parents, example, how to get down, when to get down, etc. And on top of that, who is this Elvis guy who should drive us there? But nonetheless, deeply, I would appreciate the thoughts, but nothing more. Of course, a lot of other things crossed my mind back then, and things such as how doting my grandmother was when she was around me.

... Harsh it was, situational wise as well as behaviour wise. I was clamed just like a sandwich people would say. Neither I nor Elvis stepped back, we all just remained as where we stood. But love don't just develope and go away. It stays and lingers and sometimes even evolve into something stronger. Especially when there's still visible ray of light somewhere shining in someone's direction, hope of getting it is just thought to be not so far from reach, but yet not so near as touched as well. TBC (To Be Continued)...

Philosophy: Hate... Love

Oh, here's one I tripped upon that I like:

"It is better to be hated for what you are then to be loved for what your not"
Quote from Hiba Bashir in MineKey

And think about it. It can be used in a lot of situations and everyday life examples. And that all drives down to simply be yourself, responsible for what you do, and similarly. I find it very well applicable for me, and I hope it for you as well.

Like for one, would you rather be loved for someone you are not, or be not loved for being someone you are.. That can really bring a hell of a long story with this Philosophy as one that I did adopt in Love. And that should also be probably explaining 25% of my second relationship's problem I think about. Is that, you know, usually during the initial part of a relationship, things are usually smooth under a lot of "fake" smoke ups..

So called "fake" smoke ups are like a form of delusions which cannot be totally trusted of. Things went smooth due to so many unestablished "credits" such as giving in acts, problems ain't surface that early nature, communication peaks, effort and energy sources at priorities, etc etc. And why do I personally would label them all as "fake" smoke ups are because they are not a normal situational based. They are by effort caused to behave so.

Sounds like I am making it sound complicated, but it is actually not. If you look and observe, and you can see that smoothness in operation of a relationship will operate at it's very peak due to the pool of effort it gathers from the couple. But as the whole thing grew longer, it is very high upkeep and maintainence to keep maintain it at that level. The energy and effort slowly diverse out due to a lot of factors such as no problems arise so don't need to spend so much effort on it, and love is secured and some other more factors.

The diversification of efforts and energies will reach to a point of manageable and sufficient in order to supply attention and energy to both the relationship and every other necessary involved such as work, play, friends, studies, personal, etc. And that this effort in comparison with the earlier period to be lesser but more constant. That would be the energy that is so called not pretentious and natural. Upkeep is kept to the very minimal and that is at the point of "you are" when previously at "you are not".

Well, my second relationship work out just like the above illustrated norm. But this nature has an ambiguous ending which is non-predictable, and that determines how the relationship is going to be. Like for instance we can come out with a few possibilities:

1. The relationship maintained on and on and on until both of them dies. So called this "lasting love" and in the process, things are so smooth, clam and unexciting. No one rock the "boat" and the couple enjoyed every moment they had.
2. The relationship went on and on until one of them decided to even withdraw the maintaining effort and distribute it to other activities (e.g. work, play, friends, etc). And the imbalance of effort pulls tightly the relationship which the tension is obliviously felt by the couple. Either the effort is to be covered up by the other partner, or the partner that withdrew the effort reinstate the effort, or the relationship end. Nature is unintentional.
   
3. The relationship went on and on until one of them just withdraw the maintaining effort and distribute it to other activities (specifically forming a new relationship). And the imbalance of effort pulls tightly the relationship which the tension is obliviously felt by the couple, waiting for the relationship to end. Nature is intentional.

The first possibility is obviously not what I had experienced in my second relationship, in fact, is the third. Which of course, the utmost "what you are" is looking at you as one person. And the rest, leave it up to your imagination...

The Coffin

This movie is what it's title sounds like, a horror movie. It takes place in Thailand and act out one of their ritual believe, to cheat death by lying in a coffin and to release bad luck. Oh, and another thing apart from it's rich culture story line, is Karen Mok the actress. I enjoyed most of her shows and yeah, she acted as a nutritionist called Sue in the movie.

Cheating death and cleansing of bad luck I mentioned earlier is for this two characters. Sue (acted by Karen Mok) has cancer and there is this Mariko was in coma. And upon hearing such a practice, decided to give it a try. Sue went forward and gave her try, whereas Mariko is in coma and so his boyfriend, Chris (acted by Ananda Everingdam) went for the ritual for his girlfriend. Oh, and you know what? Sue's cancer disappears, and Mariko came around, what a relieve.

But like all horror movies, this can't be the end, it never leave them just like that. Weird things, unexplainable experiences and strange encounter soon came before them.. But how? I mean, how come they are disturbed? And by who? Hmm.. For this, you got to see it for yourself. I personally grade this movie 6/10 for it's richness in culture and storyline and most of all, Karen Mok.

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Post-Examination: 2008 Trimester 3

Holly crap, finally it's all over.. Finally now I can call it a 2009 for the real time.. Finally I can take a really really deep breathe and say, 'so long 2008!'. My sleepless nights, and brain-drained days have finally come to some end and am going to celebrate it with lots of sleep (well-deserved ones) be it the grades that is going to come out in weeks more time to be good or bad. I missed the touch of my bed badly. Hugs~

The papers tormented me with multiple-choice questions, short-answer questions as well as structured questions and finally I can rest my eyes without the need to give any answers of any sorts now. But then again, recapping the whole exam thingy is kind of bad. I wasn't really that well prepared for some of the paper after all and one of those expected to perform slightly below averaged was Management. Reason: I didn't have any classes to attend, thus relaxed on my revision.

And the next not-so well prepared ones are none other than Business Law. Dang, and only until my paper do I understand that my lecturer was kind of crapped the application of principles up. My revision was quite minimal and yet this minimal revision was with the information my lecturer was focusing on a lot with the classes. I am sure most of my classmates would agreed that the application of Law was somehow or another being mistaken for.

Hmm.. initially I thought, Business Law should be compared to the rest, slightly easier (at least for me) due to the understanding that I don't need to memorize facts, just need to know where to get those available information and how to apply them. Usually the memory part would deal me great deal of trouble, due to one part of my human flaws: forgetfulness.

Well, other then the above two mentioned modules, my Economics Principles were not bad. But just not that perfect that's all. All the required information was a spot-on and the answering was quite smooth, just didn't got the chance to remember some information left and right, and thus, wasted some critical argument point and marks around and about.

And not to forget about the last not mentioned modules being Fundamentals of Finance. God.. I sure did slipped another few lots of important points and some definitive stuffs. Overall a ok. Hmm, just did a bit of regret that I didn't check my Yahoo Mail earlier before I prepare for the exam. As the focus given by the unit chair have left out something, she decided to compensate us by revealing the one question that was told to left out in the preparation of exam. Well, and if I did check my Yahoo Mail, then I would have so called picked up 'free given marks' le. Sadly, no.

'走過' by 辛曉琪

(No Lyrics Found)

Woah.. A very old mandarin song that I kindda... well, at the moment of tripping over this song, liked it. So old until the lyrics are so hard to find and refer. Very old sentimental kind of song. Hey, but it doesn't says anything about me, or my age k. =)

Who is Your dream guy?

Personality Test Result:

Here is the analysis: He is intelligent, concerned and warm. He's not looking for excitement. If you're looking for someone to watch over you, someone romantic, strong, peaceful, trust worthy, he has them all. Being the one for him can be tough, unless you use your head and your heart to take relationships seriously.
Source: Quiz Box

You know what I think about my result? Hmmm.. It is pretty true, and accurate too. But just that I don't think such guy has ever crossed my path yet, and also that such guy doesn't seem to exist in around my attraction frame. Anyway, not to forget that the test is of 'dream guy' (you understand dream guy right?), maybe you may want to try and see if your test results give you an ideal dream guy you would like? Post what you got in my comment box yeah..

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Something about Me, Something about Gay and Something about Love X

Disclaimer: All Rights Reserved, avoid further reading if HOMOPHOBIC. Emphasis that there might have contents not suited for the eyes of 21 and below. The events depicted in this blog entry is fictitious. Any similarity to any person living or dead is merely coincidental.

As previously, we stopped at

But then, deep in my mind, I suppose, a new form of omen has started to show it's way. What's in Elvis's mind about me? What was sleeping beside me all about? Wild thoughts, unfruitful thinking occupied my mind from time to time whenever it was empty for a short period of time. An another weekend later, I agreed to be with Benji. Although there was still a lot of holes to fill in order for the relationship to turn frutiful and functional, but thinking that if it was Benji's true self to give in to me, to do all that for me in love, all would turn out well eventually.

It was an open announcement, probably in a form of blows to the people that lay interest on me, and good news to my friends that showered love and care for me. But nonetheless, whatever that I used to live my life with, with clubbing and friends, with knowing new friends through internet and meeting up from time to time with my own friends, will stay. Nothing much changed, except that now, I live my life as attached and not single, and there is one more person to consider when I make any decisions.

Elvis, on the other hand, was still my friend. But strangely, after knowing the news that I was attached, he grew anxious and all worked up. Soon, words so true came out from his mouth just so smoothly one fine day (or night rather). Telling me that he found out that he do harbor feelings for me, and regretted to tell me so before I made my decision with Benji that very night we planted our hopes and got attached. Elvis felt that he grew to love me very soon after he got to know me and days later he got to know more about me.

And more, Elvis was the emotional and sentimental kind of guy that would learned to cherish romantic and meaningful love stories and put all his heart and soul in enjoying the story, even though it may be fictitious. And he shared this fiction with me: Feng Yan Feng Yu. It was all written in Chinese characters and some even with all the complex old chinese characters which we present day don't use anymore. The whole story is really a lot, but nonetheless, it didn't stopped him from getting me a copy and hopefully that I would find time to read.

Well, people that knows me well would understand that I am not a habitual reader. And in fact, I won't read unless it somewhat is my lost of not reading it. A not very book person, but rather, I would listen to people telling me what is in the book. But still, with such great effort, I read. Slowly, characters by characters, sentences by sentences, making senses and slowly seeps meaning to what I was reading. And soon I conqure pages by pages slowly day-in day-out whenever I have the time.

Back to the confession. I was in pure dilemma and handsful. Mind was so messed up and for one thing that's in my mind, I don't wish to hurt anyone and definitely a mishandling of that situation was not an option. Rejection was not the usual choice which I would take. Probably it never was my kind of answer. The worst was that neither acceptance was my choice. As a non-conformist, I believe in monogously attached form the first day that I stepped into the circle. Faithfully being together is not a choice, but the way.

July 29th. I planned to take a portion of my time out to help Elvis with his birthday plan. He planned to do a BBQ at East Coast Park. As always so well planned, I have no worries that things crop out last minute. And like the Elvis I knew, all situations will eventually be under-controlled. All I did was to present at the BBQ, helped out in carrying stuffs, looking after stuffs, and talk with his friends. Very friendly and outgoing friends he have, and fun-loving too. And so I stayed for that short while.

The same day is a usual Saturday, which I would go down to club and spend the entire night out there. With some familiar faces and known friends, and some hi-bye friends as well, that day was no exceptions. I never make exceptions for anyone anyway. Not with boyfriends, not with anyone. And the night was just another normal clubbing night, but I suppose Elvis's mind left just as I left his BBQ that night. And later on after my club, insisted to come over, drop by and give me a lift.. as well as my boyfriend.

The very night I remember, I took Elvis's handphone by mistake and I panicked.. I mean, how can the phone ended up in my possession suddenly? Anyway, Elvis came back for the phone and I felt bad for making him made such a turn for a blundle. In the whole night, Benji pulled a long face. For me, something to take note, but nothing to mention. Afterall Benji got all his freedom to feel whatever that he like. And all I did was to be me.

That night, Benji wanted to sent me to my void deck, and after that wait at my void deck. Waiting for the first MRT Train to operate around 6plus in the morning. We took a long talk. I told Benji, stop being silly and sticky to me. Sending me home and such. You know, all these make things to be such a high upkeep. Can you imagine that for the honeymoon period soneone do a lot of things for you, but probably when he gotten tired of doing all those things, he just choses not to do all those things for you anymore.

And this is when problems arise, when things changes, that when things that used to be done just stopped getting done. I detests something like that. And for that, I have more reasons to learn to be more independent. So that it would not add excessive weightage to the partner, and more importantly to the love, at the end of the day. And I finally learned that I do not appreciate short-term showing of love and care, I appreciate consistency of love and care. And my night (or day) for that day ended so. TBC (To Be Continued)...

There she is!!! Final Installment

Something that finally comes to a conclusion. Referring to my previous post: Restless is bad.. Mm'kay

Comes a final installment that concludes the whole flash. The previous time in step 4, Doki the rabbit was caught in the power struggle and in turn hurt a lot of friends involved. Nabi the cat didn't know what to do but to conform to the majority society thinking and turned his back against Doki. Nabi doesn't want to do anything, but was later on being arrested in a commotion. Just when Doki was looking for Nabi and wanted to fly to Paradise together, Nabi was in detention cell and was unreachable. If you are interested to know what is going to happen after that, please click the button below.



And as well, this is a Korean animation which I was quite interested in. And if you are too, and wish to know more, you may want to visit the website of the creator as well: http://www.sambakza.net/

One thing I really liked about this animation is the story plot. Which is about cats and rabbit (Ceteris paribus) in love. Logically, by norm and by knowledge, is wrong. But then again, what is wrong? Love didn't say they must be of the same breed.. Love also didn't specify it have to be the guy must love the girl first. A very non-conformist story plot, which is very James! And of course, the arts, and most of all, the music selected, very nice...

P.S. If you are interested to see the previous installments, feel free to click the link: Restless is bad.. Mm'kay

The Simpsons: 2007 Mypods and Boomsticks

In this episode I loved, Bart got to know a new friend Bashir, who is what he sounds like to be, a Muslim. And Homer, having all the shallow thoughts relating Muslims to terrorists with all thanks to Lenny, Carl and Moe. At the same time, Lisa got a MyPod from Krusty the clown. Under circumstances, Homer come up with an idea of asking Bashir's family to come over for a dinner, with all the wrong intentions to expose that they are terrorists.

And at the same time, Lisa loved her MyPod and was pretty happy with it. But then, she was wrong.. And she received a bill of US$1200 for all the services that she has used with the MyPod in her possession. With such a plot of story, who wouldn't want to see how the Simpsons handle them? Would Homer be able to prove that Bashir and his family are terrorists? And what is going to happen to Lisa and her MyPod and the US$1200 bill?

A parody of MyPod from IPod and Muslims as Terrorists.. Oh, I forgot to mention that there's something about Bart interrupted and insulted "Maple's" user base. And that Bashir's father have in possessions of TNT in his home. Some much exciting stuffs! Click on 2007 Mypods and Boomsticks to watch.

Pre-Examination: 2008 Trimester 3

This is the one of those days that I would be like touching lots of papers and books, pens and notes, surfing my online references and doing past year papers.. Yes, the determining day is round the corner, determining how well will my papers be graded with the already gotten marks through assignments and tests.. Which is in fact one of the few things I really do frown over..

You see, with the aid of something like assignments and online tests, it can really bring the marks closer to what the examinations, and in fact is one of those potential helps around anyway. Especially with the nature or assignments and online tests which are certain and clear, ample of time and space and best is still the availability of resources and information which doesn't need to be memorized but only apply to the required. What's more can one students ask for?! Erm.. Actually there is, like, let their weightage of marks be more than examination lor.. >_<

Hmm.. Anyway, what's done is done.. If you have to know, all I scored for my assignments and online tests are just passes by the scrap of the borderline. And that means, they will so call "pull down" my marks in the way that I have lost those marks even before my exam paper.. And that explains my next part, work doubly hard in revision for my exam papers.

One of the most important factor in determining an examination's preparation is none other than the exam schedule, and that seems to be on my side, but not perfectly my side, just enough to get things work out. And second would be the availability and clarity of requirements of information needed to be gone through for the paper. And that would mean in short 'the focus'. And the range would be wide or narrow focus..

Wide focus would means you have to get everything in your head, if possible, EVERYTHING.. If not possible, some important facts of everything. And narrow focus would means concentration on the application portion rather than elaboration on the facts and information. Hmm.. after all these things I shared, all boils down to one final thing, give it your Ultimate God Damn best shot! XD Hmm.. Oh, anyway, I'll be having two papers one after the other this coming week and other two papers one after the other the next coming week.

Give me all the available luck and blessings!

'I'm Yours' by Jason Mraz

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my best test
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
A lá peaceful melody
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'ma saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A lá one big family (2nd time: A lá happy family; 3rd time: A lá peaceful melody)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No please, don't hesitate
no more, no more
It cannot wait
The sky is your's!
(Lyricsmode, 6 Feb 2009)

Look at that.. Listen to that.. Feel it.. Feel the lyrics. Very nice song, nice vocal and rhythm and the kind of song that would make me listen already feel happy and lighten from every other things. Very inspirational song.. Love it!!

What type of personality do you have?

Personality Test Result:

Here is the analysis: A confident person
You like to do activities on your own. You are confident and that's why you don't care what other people think about you. You are ambitious and often worry about your future. You don't like to be a follower because you like to be independent - this means you are always trying your best to be the leader. You are attractive to other people because of your confidence and intelligence.
Source: Quiz Box

Wow.. I didn't expect that coming. But this time, I really got to admit the reliability is quite high. I am impressed. Probably over 85%.. I sure hope I can maintain what I am. Yay, I am a confident person! What are you? Feel free to comment.

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Something about Me, Something about Gay and Something about Love IX

Disclaimer: All Rights Reserved, avoid further reading if HOMOPHOBIC. Emphasis that there might have contents not suited for the eyes of 21 and below. The events depicted in this blog entry is fictitious. Any similarity to any person living or dead is merely coincidental.

As previously, we stopped at

Time passes us by so fast and we decided to head back to the car and go out for supper at Geylang. Seriosuly speaking, my very first time as well.. XD We went and had chinese dim sum, very yummy, and warming as well. And that all concludes for the first ever time we go out experience. It was all so sweet fonding memories.. After that supper, he drove me back and got back home, and back to his life where he least like to be.

It wasn't long before the next time that he start to ask me out again, and out to not anywhere, but Sentosa. After agreeing to it, minutes later, both of us met up at my void deck before we make our way there. And poor Elvis, few days before that very day we met, he caught flu and fever. And was pretty pressurized in his service and was not fully recovered yet. With everything, he wishes to get out of the house and have a breather of the air. Well, at some point, I do agree to the way things are and the way he react..

Who would like to stay at home the whole time, and sick and fever and thinking about his "workplace" and feel good about it? Well, probably if I wasn't so into sleeping and not lazy and doesn't care about convenience, I would have gone out and not stayed a single second at home like what he did. Hmm.. and a bit of grumbling, what are friends for right? And of course talking about M.O. and stuffs and feeling not so good. I wouldn't deny that sometimes, it is good to say it out to someone the things that have been bothering the person in the heart.

Soon arrived at Sentosa Tanjung beach once more, and we walked and strolled the beach everywhere on the beach. I can remember that I was in white Rip Curl singlet top and white beach shorts. All my belongings are left in his car, handphones, wallet, house keys, coins, etc. And what he brought with him was his car keys and house keys. We strolled to a spot that was cleaner than any other spot and we both seat down on it. That night was having high tide and you can really hear the sea splashes aggressively and there, stood the moon so round hanging in the mid sky, so beautiful.

Clouds are like bits and pieces of the moon's blankets with stars playing hide-and-seek with the clouds. And we talked, but this time, there seem to have more silence than the last time. Probably it was a night to enjoy just by siting there than to ruin it with long conversations. And then, something sparked me in my mind and thought of building sand. Talking piles and piles of sand and stack thinking of forming Kit Kat's bar shape, or even M&M's ovalish-round shape. It was a night with a lot of fun. But just then, there's trouble...

Elvis came to me telling me that he could find nowhere his house keys, when he placed his house keys near to where he placed his slippers and the keys were nowhere to be found. And it was 4 plus in the morning. I panicked just as he already have, and started searching everywhere for it, even if it means to get our shorts wet. Well, you see, as it was high tide, so the place where he placed his slippers could have been the sea shore by the time we were looking for it, or even in the sea.

All search has left us with no clues, nor results. And soon, all energies and hopes slowly slip us by. And due to the lateness of the night, we decided to cease all searches and go home. As he lost his house keys in the process, he have nowhere to go until the morning breaks. Nobody would want to bother their parents that late in the night, trust me. So, I thought maybe he can spend the night over at mine's, a place for him to wash up from the salty night and a place to rest his mind on for the night. Afterall, I used to have a little sofa bed in my room, and that can finally be opened up for some usage.

I gave Elvis my bed as I rested on the sofa bed. Not as comfortable, neither was it nice. It felt really hard and short (with my body) and have a really very uncomfortable high head rest. But luckily it was, I still had a bolster with me. And the hour of resting was so little before the morning sun starts to shine on my window. Elvis was sleeping beside me the next minute I took a turn.. Hmmm.. and then I 'uh-oh'ed. =o

Anyway, a short night it was, but seems so long a night. And the sun signal fo Elvis' to take his leave, on his way home for a rest that he would truely need as both a patient and someone who had less than 4 hours of rest in some stranger's house. And as for me, just go to bed and not to think about anything for now is the best policy. Afterall, who needs to trouble himself and get all tensed up, after a long night and little sleep? Well, for me, sleep is the most important thing in the World. A sleepless World probably means a short life span + unsatisfied life.

But then, deep in my mind, I suppose, a new form of omen has started to show it's way. What's in Elvis's mind about me? What was sleeping beside me all about? Wild thoughts, unfruitful thinking occupied my mind from time to time whenever it was empty for a short period of time. An another weekend later, I agreed to be with Benji. Although there was still a lot of holes to fill in order for the relationship to turn frutiful and functional, but thinking that if it was Benji's true self to give in to me, to do all that for me in love, all would turn out well eventually. TBC (To Be Continued)...